It is what it is.

Johann and I in 2010.

I have been trying to find the words to describe what our relationship is like, and weeks of pondering, I can't wait the proper words for it. It is what it is, something extraordinary.

I spent last Saturday with this amazing boy and it was everything I wanted it to be and more. He is everything I want. I don't want to go into detail, because the specifics of it is too much. Too much of everything. I can't cram four years into a small post, and soon those four years will turn to five, then six, then seven, and even then I wouldn't be able to find the right words for what we have.